.the half way point

i had a lot of this fabric and nothing to do with it. i placed it on my sewing table and this idea came to me. an off the shoulders shirt with baggy 3/4 sleeves. i started working on this Thursday night and this is how far i've gotten. there is so much to do but i can't force myself to work on it right now. i still need to hem the bottom, take the seam out of the left sleeve and cut it a little more, and add a wow factor with the red fabric. i am not dead set on using the red. i have so many other colors to choose from but as of right now, i may stick with red.

i shall be back probably the middle of the week or weekend.

.sketch

i'm not fond of this sketch but its kind of growing on me.(please excuse the hair! my son kept moving my arm as i was drawing last night) its a open vest with a shirt that has a draping neckline and ruffled bottom. i have this infatuation with ruffles that is beyond ridiculous! not sure if i'm going to make this. if i do, it will probably be worn once and then collect dust in the dark abyss that is my closet! i am thinking of altering it a little by taking the ruffles off the bottom of the shirt and making it like a dress, giving the vest ruffles around the arm holes, and making the shirt sleeves longer. deep thought its needed on that.

my baby told me i should make myself a girly hoodie. later on tonight i'll probably sketch that out to see what i come up with.


if you were confused about my last post, allow me to detail it a little for you. there is a female who takes it upon herself to "watch" whats going on in my life. it is very annoying. a grown ass woman is taking the time out of her day to visit my blog several times throughout the day from different locations just to see whats going on between my baby and i. who does that? bitch, build a bridge and get over it! we are happy! just shows how much of a life you have.

.to my #1 fan

happiness is where his heart is. with my son and i. keep watching us grow.

.fashion week

i'd be lying if i said i wasn't hot about not being able to attend baltimore's fashion week. i knew i wasn't going to be able to be in the show but i at least wanted to go. the only person who was willing to go was Brran but the atl wanted him a little longer. i asked another best est and she said "boo, you're not in it so i'm not going." sucks! i could have gone by myself but some things are best done with friends.

there are very few fashion shows in baltimore so i believe my chances of seeing a nice curvy girl strut my shit has gone out the window. at least until next year. i'm really bummed over this!
i plan to do a mini collection and find a nice photographer for a photo shoot. maybe i'll be back later with a few sketches.

EDITED: 7:43 p.m.

it took for me to miss out on this major opportunity to realize that i need to snap out of this low swagga thing! i mean, for the rest of my life ... i'll have to deal with haters! i'm sure there are a lot of people doubting me as is. with that being said... i'll leave the doubting to my haters! time to get to work! did i mention that i am bummed?!

.no men's wear for me

EDITed 10:11 p.m.

i was looking through Model Mayhem to see whats new under the clothing designer section when i came across this.

this right here is a perfect example of why i DON'T do men's clothing. you can't do but so much to a man before you have him screaming "triple snap in a z formation." not that there is anything wrong with gay men, but i'm sure that there are no heterosexual men in this world, that want to walk around with a yellow button down polo shirt with a ruffled collar and faux fur sleeves! in my eyes, there are only 2 ways a man can go... street sleek and dapper dan. maybe some men can get away with a combo of the 2. hmmm, thats not a bad idea. maybe i will try to sketch out a few thing in the near future. but for now, i'll leave that to Ralph Lauren!

.fuck what you heard

i've come to love the SBPH blog and all of the conversations that stem from the topics but one thing that is beginning to boil my blood is the amount of comments about baltimore. i understand that a lot of people watch The Wire so they have this perception of everything baltimore is about. this city is never displayed for any of the great things that it has breed. its just the drug, murder, and aids city.


FIRST OF ALL, not everyone from baltimore is a walking box of "Herpiesyphilirhea"! placing everyone that baltimore has given birth to under one category shows how wrong people really are.I did NOT come from a crackhead mother, we didn't live in those 4 level beat down house that you see on Tv, and we have never lived off the government! we did not always have it easy but we never live under those baltimore stereotypes.


its annoying when people speak on shit that they think they know about. until you've lived in baltimore for more than a few years... don't catigorize its people! i'll admit that as soon as everything is right for me, i'm moving away but its for the good of my child. if ALL baltimore people were like the ones you've seen on The Wire , i'd be on some ole "i'll stay here so my son can live out dope boy dreams" type shit. its a sad thing when you can't tell people where you are from because of the instant stereotypes that come along with it.


this city that used to be know for breeding some of the most important people in black history such as Billie Holiday, Frederick Douglass, and Thurgood Marshall, has now been down graded. our people's lust for material things have decayed this city and any smart person knows that this isn't just a baltimore problem. there are other places such as memphis, atl, l.a, and detroit that have the same drug, crime, and health issues as baltimore but you just choose to single out the one that has the HBO show.

so to everyone who feels the need to judge me or they know something about me based off of my birth place, you can kiss my baltimore fed ass. i make me who i am, not my city

.low swagga

i find that i am motivated to sew when people piss me off. so i was able to finish this dress thursday night, that i no longer love. i swear it always looks a lot better on paper! i can sit down and sketch out the cutest dress but for some reason, i always end up losing love for it. this might have something to do with my brother telling me i look like a kinky cop in this dress. he said all i need is a hat and handcuffs.

my goal for this life is to be featured in New York and/or L.A fashion week every year within the next 10 years. by my mid 30's, i'd like to have my own boutique. i figure i have to start off small with something like selling on eBay. i get so many messages through myspace and e-mail from people wanting me to make them stuff but i keep turning them down. there is a lack of confidence here that is so serious! when they say "you are you're own worse critic" they are absolutely right in my case! its not just my dislike for my ideas after a while. its also the fact that i'm not really a money person, so i'd put a price on this dress and have everyone screaming that my prices are too low. in the back of my mind i tell myself "you spent your time on making this, so why not put a higher price on it". everything that i make starts off as an idea that is sketches out on paper, and deeply analyzed. i look at my sketch and figure out how many pieces this garment will need. i draw out each piece, measure the body, and carefully put it together. this is something that i taught myself to do. with no school training and being able to do what i can, i can see why people scream on me about pricing. most of these ideas are trial and error. they come out great but i feel that it could be better. i guess with more time under my belt, i'll be combfort enough with my clothes to sell. for now i continue to fill up my closet and draw up new ideas.