.hurry election 08

am i the only one who can't wait for this election to be over?! i am soooooooooooo tired of people trying to twist Obama's words, quoting McCain, and interviews with Ms. I wanted Alaska to be a part of Canada but now i'm running for U.S V.P.!

i for one, will NOT vote for McCain JUST because he has a vagina on his side! especially one that does not think we need sex education in school! we should teach our own children to 'not" have sex. sex is everywhere! how many people can honestly say that their parents told them NOT to have sex and they didn't? you have sex when you're ready and why shouldn't these kids be prepared for when they are ready? its funny how this woman is so open about being against abortions, sex ed, and birth control and there are so many videos out about Obama and "infantcide" now! i am beyond annoyed with this whole election and i can't wait for December so this shit will be over!

come on! really! what is everyone scared of? do you think if Obama is our president our flag will be converted to a yellow flag with the black power symbol on it?! do you really think weed will be the new legal cure for everyone's problems??! are you scared he is going to change the lyrics of our national anthem to say "i ain't never ran from a nigga and i ain't about to pick to day to start running...."?!

he is already made history and we love him for it! i wish everyone would get the hell over it!

.unexpected hiatus

after days of having a toothache, i finally took my ass to the dentist. i will fight through pain until i feel like i'm seconds away from death which is a bad thing because i cause myself more damage by doing that. when i was pregnant with my son, he drained most of the calcium out, causing me to have soft finger nails, and weakened my teeth so long story short, i'm in tremendous pain, sore gums, taking oxycodine, and can't open my mouth wide enough to eat solid food! right now i'm living off of nasty ass applesauce, chicken soup, and warm water. i have an appointment to have this taken care of next week but i'm praying that most of the pain will subside before then.

p.s. my 2 yr old son keeps messing with my because he knows i'm in pain! he hit my cheek and laughted so i pinched him and screamed "you play too much punk!" he turns and shouts "what you say" like he is a gangsta or something and runs out the room! lol. it took everything in me not to smile and hurt myself.

.it is what it is

while suffering from a serious headache thats keeping me awake, my mind will not stray away from questions that have yet to receive answers. half of me wants answers and the other half just throws in the white towel. i feel like i handle certain situations to the best of my ability but then hear that i went about it all wrong. i hate being in the center of shit. i rather be alone than to be placed in an uncomfortable position for that reason. especially when i always catch the blunt end of the assault. i am no ms. cleo but i can see myself being alone. in the past, i'd do everything in my power to fix the things that i cared about the most. this time, i'm the one thats broken.

so my main question is ... how do you go from being looked at like family, to being looked at like the enemy? i know for a fact that there is a lot of trust lost but on what grounds? i've been asking myself this for days and i believe it is part of the reason for this pounding headache but i can't help but wonder. its painful when you hold someone dear to you and they lose trust over something that never happened or crossed your mind.


"you are what you eat" so i guess they think i have a batch of backstabber cookie stashed in my purse.

.mmm ruffles

i ran across this vest in bonzie's etsy shop. she is selling this vest and many other styles for $45.00. this vest is very pretty to me but i don't know if i would really pay $45 for it. that may just be because i'm a d.i.y type person. being that, i saw a tutorial for this vest through instructables.com. the fact that it was made from an old pair of jeans is what made me fall head over heels for this vest. can't you just imagine this vest with a plaid, or pinstripe print? my only problem is, could this really be worn on a normal just chills day? if i have a change of heart and decide that i do want one, i'll probably make mine with an old pair of jeans. that way it can be worn with anything. although, pinstripes would be sexy!


i have a idea for this shirt dress out of a old 4x button down. if it turns out the way i'm see it then look forward to some pictures and maybe even a tutorial.

.back

this brief hiatus and a weekend with my huney was what i needed. not just because of the great massage he gave me but because he motivated me to push myself more.

i have a book full of sketches that date back to 2003 and had no intention to make some of them. i remember sitting in Mrs. Williams boring ass English class, passing notes to my Jessie Babe and sketches ideas that i would feed the trash can with by the end of the day. after a while i began to save them and they now rest inside of a big white binder, collecting dust. as time goes on, i grow to love them more and wonder why it is i chose to negelect them. so..... instead of letting my babies go unseen inside a cluttered book, i am going to frame my 3 favorites and hang them up in my little corner. when i graduate to a bigger space, they'll have a place on my wall to remind me of where it all began. i am also going to start working on mini collections for 2009. six or more garments to begin my portfolio. so excited already! 2009... watch me!

P.S. thinking of giving away prom dress ideas in sketch form.

.hmm

thinking of moving this blog. might even close it all together.