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i find that i am motivated to sew when people piss me off. so i was able to finish this dress thursday night, that i no longer love. i swear it always looks a lot better on paper! i can sit down and sketch out the cutest dress but for some reason, i always end up losing love for it. this might have something to do with my brother telling me i look like a kinky cop in this dress. he said all i need is a hat and handcuffs.

my goal for this life is to be featured in New York and/or L.A fashion week every year within the next 10 years. by my mid 30's, i'd like to have my own boutique. i figure i have to start off small with something like selling on eBay. i get so many messages through myspace and e-mail from people wanting me to make them stuff but i keep turning them down. there is a lack of confidence here that is so serious! when they say "you are you're own worse critic" they are absolutely right in my case! its not just my dislike for my ideas after a while. its also the fact that i'm not really a money person, so i'd put a price on this dress and have everyone screaming that my prices are too low. in the back of my mind i tell myself "you spent your time on making this, so why not put a higher price on it". everything that i make starts off as an idea that is sketches out on paper, and deeply analyzed. i look at my sketch and figure out how many pieces this garment will need. i draw out each piece, measure the body, and carefully put it together. this is something that i taught myself to do. with no school training and being able to do what i can, i can see why people scream on me about pricing. most of these ideas are trial and error. they come out great but i feel that it could be better. i guess with more time under my belt, i'll be combfort enough with my clothes to sell. for now i continue to fill up my closet and draw up new ideas.